Goddamn you horoscope!

You may feel as if you have something to hide today, but everything will likely come out into the open before you even realize it. Ultimately this is healthy, for secrets can prevent you from really connecting with someone special. If you do attempt to purposefully mislead anyone -- even if it is only a conscious omission -- a memorable moment could unravel pretty quickly.

Okay fine.

I have a boyfriend.

There.

I said it.

Don't know why that freaks me out a little bit.

I'll get over it.

He's kind of awesome.

drinking pink champagne from a paper cup

Actually it's a coffee cup. I went to HEB intending to buy beer, and at the last minute saw a $4.59 bottle of pink shitty champagne and bought it - and I am now drinking the last lil bit of it. Cause I can - and I'm all smiley and watchin' bad tv in my underwear at nearly 4am. I've been in a damn good mood lately.

I don't really like to gush too much about boys that I date, cause I always feel dumb when it falls backwards and they turn out to be douchey and not as awesome as I thought. However, since about 3 people read this blog regularly (one of those is me), I'm gonna fuckin' gush.

This guy's a sweetheart, man, I'm tellin' ya. I'm kind of downright smitten and it freaks me out just a lil bit because I'm very wary about getting smitten too soon. And I've only really known him for a little less than 2 weeks, so he could still turn out to be a crazy. But for now, I'll just get all swoony when he tells me how pretty I am, or sits on the couch with me and watches bad tv and rubs my feet, or how he uh - wakes me up in the morning (yes, I already slept with him - a bunch - shut up). And he's really cute you guys, and like a foot taller than me, and he can pick me up and kiss me and it kind of rules. And aside from teeny annoyances that I have with him sending "LOL" in a text (Frank Moody and I share the same feelings on this), I get a big ol kick out of the "thinking of you" text he sent me a couple hours ago.

I'm gonna start bringing him around I think. I'm not accustomed to this whole dating thing. Frankly it's strange to me. I kind of feel like I haven't seen a lot of friends because I've been spending the past few days wrapped up with Casey or making weekend plans with him instead of others I haven't seen in a while. But so far I like spending time with him, and I like having him around, and it's about fucking time that I'm able to bring someone new around my friends that I can flirt with and that they like. So there it is.

He's coming with me downtown to the Tres Chic thing this weekend. If anyone would like to meet him and not focus on the "met him on myspace" thing (... Henri), then you should come out as well. And we'll all get drunk and have fun together. And then I will win.

And my horoscopes have been rocking my world lately:

If you've been thinking about returning to school or undertaking a new course of study, this is a perfect time to further this exploration. Making a plan about your future education is a good idea now, for you have a healthy balance between idealism and pragmatism. Visualize all the possibilities and choose the path that makes the most sense.

Idealism and pragmatism. You heard it here, folks. My shit is balanced!

Who knew?

I swear, I really don't put stock into this horoscope shit - but sometimes...

Others may be too emotional for you today as they reveal their feelings so easily that it nearly embarrasses you. You prefer to avoid drama, but the conversation begins suddenly and deepens too quickly to stop. Your key planet Venus seeks simple pleasures now, but nothing you do seems to lessen the entanglements. Letting go of your assumptions about love can be helpful to all involved.

That shit hit home, yo. Seeking simple pleasures, letting go of assumptions, being surrounded by drama and trying to avoid it.

Anyway, I'm trying to figure out some sort of direction to point myself in in the upcoming months. The road trip cleared my head a bit, but only to the point where I realized that I don't want to cause confrontation and dramatic accusations where Andrew is concerned, and I don't really want to take myself into a drastic change. Unfortunately, and this has always been the case for me in any situation, in order to get away from something, I need there to be something else to go to. Otherwise I just snap back like a rubberband and it hurts and leaves a little red mark.

It turns out that said Myspace Guy (known to the real world as Casey) is a really cool guy. Thankfully the one person I decided to meet from myspace is a smart, funny, charming guy with great tattoos. He's chivalrous, attractive, loves good beer, he's a night owl and an atheist. All this I learned in two dates. This is an interesting situation. I went to his apartment last night. Met his roommates, drank beer and watched Spaced in his room. We chatted and smoked cigarettes in between episodes, I decided to go home around 3am, he walked me to my car, hugged me and said we'll make plans next week. I went home and went to bed then - but on the first date I went home and went to bed with someone else - which made me feel slutty and awesome at the same time. Mostly awesome. Actually only awesome. I never feel slutty. Well except for once. But we're not gonna talk about that now.

If I'm going to continue to hang out with Casey, and at this point I plan to, some changes are going to be made. Mainly, I'm going to clean my fucking apartment hardcore style, cause his place was like, super nice and tidy and comfy. That's the only plan I have now. Step by step.

hahaha

Yep - so totally going to meet myspace guy for a drink tomorrow night. He's already texted me a few times. According to his myspace page, he's pretty cute. This could either be awesome or terrible. But a good story anyway - MORE TO COME!

Brief Update

Roadtrip: Fucking amazing, perfect, relaxing, and all that shit. Christi and I are awesome. More to come with pictures later.

4th of July: Turns out I throw awesome parties. Turns out people love fireworks. Turns out Tim League sets shit on fire. All good things!

Coming up: My first meeting with someone from myspace... oooooooohhhh.... yeah I know it's kind of weird but whatever fuck you