Scratch that

"The bottomline for you is basically nothing financially bad. You don’t get a suspension. You don’t get fired. Except that you do. See, they feel like the whole company is apparently watching to see what they do in this situation, just waiting to cry favoritism or whatever. So they’re going to demote you to unpaid intern status, and you’re going to be upset about that. But immediately after that happens, Tim is going to pay me more, and I’m going to pay you out of my pocket. But, and here’s the rub, no one can hear about that part of it. As far as anyone else in the staff is concerned, including a Robert or Joe or whoever, your grandparents are giving you extra money through this period, or something like that, and you’re staying on as an unpaid intern because you like the benefits and you’re hoping that through good behavior you’ll get hired on again. And then in six months, you *will* be officially hired on again, and nothing bad will happen."

I didn't feel like retyping what that email said, so there it is. Basically, I'm no longer on payroll or salary, and that sucks. My hope of being hired on full time this summer is shot, and now only taking one class next semester seems stupid, because I don't actually have a reason. I'm sitting at work now, trying to convince myself to get some work done. I already took a cry/cigarette break in my car, and I am pissed.

Super pissed.

Boom!

Who's not gettin' fired? Oh that's right, it's me!

To celebrate me still having a job, here's a the best cd of the summer so far

MGMT's "Oracular Spectacular"
http://download.yousendit.com/01AFE37A34011E98

xoxo

Dear Job of Mine

Please don't fire me. I'm sorry I fooled you into thinking that I was drinking legally. To be fair, you never checked my ID. My real one anyway. Also to be fair, I am now actually 21. I'm kind of freaking out. Very stressed. I'm also broke, and not taking classes next semester so that I can work for you. I will be even broker and then I'll have to get a real job. One with hours that suck where I'll have to be doing boring shit with no pay off. I'll have to cancel my roadtrip because I won't have a paycheck to back me financially. Look, we're totally friends. I know you like me, and I like you. Please don't take away my money and my awesome job and fun sing-along benefits. That would really fucking blow.

So yeah - you guys can all meet about it tomorrow and talk about how awesome and beneficial I am and how you'd rather hire me full time then fire me completely. And that will be good.

PS - if it comes down to it - I'll totally take you down with me

Kisses!

Happy Birthday to me

Ah 21 - I should have just gotten back from downtown all wastey faced and pukey - instead, I'm stuck in Conroe with an on-again, off-again fever and a throat that feels like it's being stabbed by knives. At least my fever has been down for maybe 5 hours now. It was 104 earlier, and boy did I feel like shit.

Radiohead was pretty amazing yesterday though. I ate some shrooms, not enough to make me ridiculous, but enough to make me really fucking happy and totally dig the amazing light show that they had. I wish my camera had captured the brilliance of it, but alas, it did not

Oh god I really need this tylenol to kick in so my throat can chill the fuck out. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow morning, hopefully she'll give me painkillers

I've fucked more models than bulimia!

So, due to Insomnia's charm and appeal, I totally gave in and already, within the past week, have become very close to nocturnal. It's not only because of Insomnia though, it's also because of Grand Theft Auto. And drinking. And hanging out at odd hours with friends.

I'm like, WAY far in the game though. So I guess that's pretty awesome. I don't play video games that often, but when I do, I go hard. Then I forget how addicted I can get to that shit, until I get a new game. It's a hard knock life.

So today, I was supposed to finish my final paper of the semester. However, because it's still part of the ULTIMATE-PROCRASTINATION-SEMESTER!!! I of course, took forever doing it. And then, around 3:30p I realized that there was not a chance in hell that I would have it done by 5pm when it was due. A quick email to my professor and an hour later - that paper is no longer due until Thursday. This continues my streak of not turning in a single paper on time this semester. And with 3 writing component courses, I had a lot of fucking papers! Not one was in on time, and you know what? Not one of those late papers affected my grades. SUCK IT DEADLINES!

Some deadlines must be met though. Like finishing sing-alongs on time because there are roughly a hundred people that would be super bummed and angry if I fucked up that deadline. I can totally deal with one professor being disappointed and taking a letter grade off of a paper, but 100 angry sing-along fans? Fuck that shit!

So as I subtitle all the best hits from 107.5 The Buzz (which later turned to 94.5 switching with the Oldies station - I never understood why they did that - or more importantly - why they got rid of 102.9 The Planet - that station was the BOMB in 5th grade!) with that paper still nagging me in the background, I have developed a flawless (totally not flawless) plan to finish subtitling everything tonight, wake up in the afternoon, work on my paper all tomorrow night, get triz-ashed on Thursday night.

READY? OK!

A lover scorned

so last night, as I was trying to fall asleep, I got a fake phone call from someone I used to know - it went a little something like this

*ring, ring*
ME: Hello?
--: Caitlin! Hey!
ME: Uh, who's this?
--: Oh what, you don't have my number anymore? Ha, just kidding. It's Insomnia! How's it going?
ME: OH! Shit! Uh, hey... yeah... it's okay... you?
--: Not bad, not bad. Hey I know we haven't spoken in a while, but I just wanted to let you know that I'm back in town.
ME: Oh... great... that's great!
--: Yeah - so if you want to get together sometime...
ME: Yeah - I'll give you a call...
--: Great! Well I guess I'll talk to you later! Sleep well! HA!
*click*

And then I said "FUCK!" and realized that I had been laying in bed for 2 hours without sleeping. Summer always brings the shittiest sleep schedule EVER and I have to try to get that under control. I can't stay up til 6 and sleep til 4 this summer - that makes me feel shitty. I don't care if Insomnia's back in town - I'm ignoring him - he's a douchebag.

My lack of inhibitions

So last night, I had sex with someone that I SWORE to myself I would never have sex with again. BUT - it was really fun! Kinda of surprising actually! Maybe I had made it so horrible in my mind from the last time that it was like, the other extreme (cause you guys, last time was like, the worst)

Anyway - it was just nice. Like, really nice. So when he sat down on the bed to kiss me before he left this morning, I was like "hell yeah! good decision Caitlin!" and then I passed out for a few hours (cause good sex or not, it's still way hard for me to sleep well in a bed with someone else)

I have little to no expectations, I'm just relishing the moment.

Now - time to take care of finals.

I woofed my teamster sub for you!

So I just now watched last nights 30 Rock, and after watching Liz Lemon scream "WHO ATE MY MAC & CHEESE!" and flipping a table, and then threaten to cut Kenneth's face off because someone stole her sandwich, and scream "WHO WAS THAT BITCH THAT ANSWERED YOUR PHONE 8 MONTHS AGO?!" and then refuse to choose between a sandwich and a boy.... I realized that I cannot wait to be in my thirties. As freakish as these similarities are... well... I hope it'll be funny in real life too!

And here's a clip from last last week - suck it monkeys!



PS - last day of class is done done yay yay