Funny random memory

So I was "cleaning" my room (pushing clothes into one big pile instead of lots of tiny piles) and all the sudden a really random memory popped into my head.

Did I ever tell you about the time that I was at a guys place, we fooled around, he got up to use the bathroom and I put my hands under the pillow and found some chicks panties? I just put them back.

I don't really remember my reaction at the time. Actually, I think I rationalized it somehow. And then I completely put it out of mind. Remembering it now it's quite funny. Especially considering the dude (guess who!). hahaha... ridiculous...

Nostalgia

So I went to Joelle's birthday party tonight. I haven't seen that group of people in a very long time (well I saw Joelle at Jeff's not too long ago - but the rest). I went because I knew that there would be a large group of people that would be excited to see me. I was right. It was super nice hearing "Caitlin! I haven't seen you in forever!" and having good conversation with old friends.

But of course, as usual, there was the one person who I didn't know what it would be like to talk to again. And I tell ya, it's weird having good conversation with someone, and forcing yourself to remember all the shitty things about that person so that you don't enjoy the conversation that much. And when they kiss you on the cheek, and later they put their arm around you and kiss you on the temple, your brain is SCREAMING at you going "HEY! Remember the times that he fucked you over?! THAT SUCKED!" and you sigh and take your arm away from around his waist and go talk to someone else for a while because you've grown up enough to recognize a shitty situation and back out of it.

But you still wonder...

I hate it. But that dude still fucks with my world.